called out. called back.

Let me first start by saying my God is awesome.

This week has rocked my world.  The Lord is challenging me in some amazing ways right now and I am doing my best to be faithful and obedient.  Praise the Lord for His grace  :)

Last night, I was walking to the store with my friend Paul (another RA on staff with me) and we were talking.  He had just finished watching "Slumdog Millionaire" and so we started to talk about the premise of the movie.  Paul was explaining that he was so challenged by the main character, Jamal.  Jamal grows up in the slums, experiences some major hardships and is miraculously rescued from the slum life.  Once he is older, he decides to go back to the slums looking for his childhood friend, Prakash.  His sole aim is to find her and bring her out of the hardship of living in the slums.  

I was so challenged by this thought: What has God rescued me from that He is calling me back into in order to give others hope?  What is it that the Lord has miraculously saved me from that I need to go back to in order to point others to the Savior?  This one question has messed. me. up.

I've been thinking about how I am going to spend my next couple years.  When do I want to graduate?  Do I want to re-apply to be an RA for next year?  Do I want to intern somewhere this summer?  What about grad school?  So much to think about.  

So right now, I find myself in a place of total surrender to the Lord.  Wherever He sends me, I will go.  With a willing heart, I will go.  With eyes open to hurt, ears open to stories and a heart open to change, I will go.  Here I am Lord, send me. 

So now I ask you: What has God rescued YOU from that He is calling YOU back into in order to give others hope?  Let this one question turn your world upside down.  Turn your attention outward.  Turn your heart to the Lord.  Let it mess. you. up.